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toosutoI think I clipped Art's car while I was parking, if you see him would you be a dear and let him know?
There's been a lot going on in my head and I am going to best to vomit it forth in some sort of coherent manner. Things have gotten somewhat calm on the job front. I don't like it any better but it is more bearable. I feel competent and sometimes like people might actually be listening to what I have to tell them. The weather has been more than pleasant. It's cooled off and has been overcast and rainy more often than not: my favorite kind of weather. And this train of thought is getting me very distracted. (A bell sounds.)
I've got this problem/issue/thing that's been rolling around in my head and I am interested in hearing some opinions/suggestions/whatever. I have for some time now been considering what to for myself to fill the gaping void where some people have a spiritual life. I was raised catholic but if I hadn't been fully decided that the big C (*snicker*) wasn't for me the Pope's recent lettero f appreciation certainly would have decided it.
Pope: This one goes out to all the ladies... (A bell rings. The Pope glances around.)
Pope: Now I want you to know that it's me, not you- (A bell rings.)
Pope: Hey Women: suck it! (A Bell.)
Pope: ... (Bell.) </David Ives>
I certainly am not willing to tell Rona someday, "Well I know this religion treats you like a second class citizen but the message behind all the dogma is..." That point is moot as I feel I have left that (or any other christian church) behind me. I am tired of wading through all of it just to get to the point (Hey, be nice to each other!) But I am unsure where to go. I know myself well enough that I need some sort of outside structure to hang my experience on, for a number of reasons. A) It doesn't seem worth it if I just make it all up. I make shit up all the time and that does not make a spiritual life make. B) If it's just me always all by my lonesome doing X eventually X succumbs to being put off in lieu of doing Y, Z and A or whatever other alpha-numerical representations of stuff waltz in and shout (in high squeaky voices) "Hey, we are cool things that must be done ,i>now,/i> or you'll never get another chance to do us again.
What am I looking for? Good question internet, I'm glad you asked. These are the qualifiers that come to mind: no hippy crap. I'm not looking for a feel good philosophy to explain why, oh why good things happen to bad people. I am looking for something that will allow me to center myself and accept the fact that horrible shit happens that the universe can be capricious beast when it wants to so deal. I started trying to practice yoga this summer at a local center and found that while I enjoy the physical activity what little non-physical instruction that went along with it really made me uncomfortable for that very reason. 40 year old empowered women treating as if I was trying to become an empowered woman just doesn't cut it for me. I have in the past found myself drawn to eastern philosophies to try and put together a decent worldview and while I admit that I am currently leaning towards eastern thought as a possible solution to my dilemma I do not want to be a cultural usurper and want to come to it in a way that is honest about where I am coming from, what I am moving into and where it can take me.
I dunno reading that last bit my eyes tend to glaze over but that could just be that the afternoon is more than pleasantly warm and I am listening to the Smiths and everything just seems kind of calm and dreamy. Perhaps it is just the time to go lounge on the couch and snuggle with my girls. (A bell rings)
There's been a lot going on in my head and I am going to best to vomit it forth in some sort of coherent manner. Things have gotten somewhat calm on the job front. I don't like it any better but it is more bearable. I feel competent and sometimes like people might actually be listening to what I have to tell them. The weather has been more than pleasant. It's cooled off and has been overcast and rainy more often than not: my favorite kind of weather. And this train of thought is getting me very distracted. (A bell sounds.)
I've got this problem/issue/thing that's been rolling around in my head and I am interested in hearing some opinions/suggestions/whatever. I have for some time now been considering what to for myself to fill the gaping void where some people have a spiritual life. I was raised catholic but if I hadn't been fully decided that the big C (*snicker*) wasn't for me the Pope's recent lettero f appreciation certainly would have decided it.
Pope: This one goes out to all the ladies... (A bell rings. The Pope glances around.)
Pope: Now I want you to know that it's me, not you- (A bell rings.)
Pope: Hey Women: suck it! (A Bell.)
Pope: ... (Bell.) </David Ives>
I certainly am not willing to tell Rona someday, "Well I know this religion treats you like a second class citizen but the message behind all the dogma is..." That point is moot as I feel I have left that (or any other christian church) behind me. I am tired of wading through all of it just to get to the point (Hey, be nice to each other!) But I am unsure where to go. I know myself well enough that I need some sort of outside structure to hang my experience on, for a number of reasons. A) It doesn't seem worth it if I just make it all up. I make shit up all the time and that does not make a spiritual life make. B) If it's just me always all by my lonesome doing X eventually X succumbs to being put off in lieu of doing Y, Z and A or whatever other alpha-numerical representations of stuff waltz in and shout (in high squeaky voices) "Hey, we are cool things that must be done ,i>now,/i> or you'll never get another chance to do us again.
What am I looking for? Good question internet, I'm glad you asked. These are the qualifiers that come to mind: no hippy crap. I'm not looking for a feel good philosophy to explain why, oh why good things happen to bad people. I am looking for something that will allow me to center myself and accept the fact that horrible shit happens that the universe can be capricious beast when it wants to so deal. I started trying to practice yoga this summer at a local center and found that while I enjoy the physical activity what little non-physical instruction that went along with it really made me uncomfortable for that very reason. 40 year old empowered women treating as if I was trying to become an empowered woman just doesn't cut it for me. I have in the past found myself drawn to eastern philosophies to try and put together a decent worldview and while I admit that I am currently leaning towards eastern thought as a possible solution to my dilemma I do not want to be a cultural usurper and want to come to it in a way that is honest about where I am coming from, what I am moving into and where it can take me.
I dunno reading that last bit my eyes tend to glaze over but that could just be that the afternoon is more than pleasantly warm and I am listening to the Smiths and everything just seems kind of calm and dreamy. Perhaps it is just the time to go lounge on the couch and snuggle with my girls. (A bell rings)
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Date: 28 Sep 2004 02:40 (UTC)Yeah, I'm with you there. The Zen thing was definitely my last alternative. And maybe this is totally self-serving, but I tend to think that the fact that you're so concerned about the exotification issue means you're not doing it so much. :/
It's too bad there's not a Czech equivalent, though. I mean, shit, think about all the bakery.
sadly all we have is a family of gypsies that have cursed our city. True story!
No way! Why'd they do that, praytell?
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Date: 28 Sep 2004 14:27 (UTC)They are kind of a shady family and I think the abuse has definitely goes both ways (they won a lawsuit against the city some years back but I can't remember what for exactly, maybe an illegal police raid of their home?) It's hilarious when they get up at city council meetings and offer to remove the curse from the city if we'd only...
Mmmm, bakery. Plus think of all the pinochle!